anit movement

Still steadily progressing on the downward path but not as quick as if I were exercising regularly. I don't kmow why I won't because I love the feeling of finishing a workout, especially cardio. I'm good at cardio, I never get bored, I always mix it up and always finished pleased with myself, so why don't I like to start it.
I suppose somewhere in my head there is a bit that has decided to take the easy out and just let the sleeve do everything for me. ?????????????????????
My eating habits have certainly changed.
I don't crave anything really.
I choose healthy options even if the portions are small.
I have an occasional treat.
I love the new body I am developing so you would think if I could get there quicker with exercise I would just get off my butt and do it.

Move, Kerry, move.

Reflection

Exercise: Bugger all
Breakfast: crumpet
Lunch: cup soup
Tea:casserole with dumplings, of course I will be full after about 1 dumpling and 2 tbsp casserole, but that is what I am going to have.

Many years ago when I was just a little girl and it rained I had little curls all over my head. Now that I am 51 and after/during hair loss I also have regrowth I have those little curls again. I feel so young it is not funny.
In fact I feel so young that I am dressing that way, I have a shortish skirt on today, yes I am wearing a skirt and it has been years since I have. It is size 12.
The other thing that I have on is knee high boots. I have boots on!!!!!It has been a very long time.
I have been getting compliments all over the place but what most people don't realise is that I am technically still obese and have about 3 stone (in their language) to lose, so they tell me that I should not go too far.
I am sure manufacturers have made the sizes larger. I really can't be a true 12 or as one shop assistant said to me, "you are going to end up an 8 or a 6". How good would that be, I think to myself, let's just keep motoring on.
Mirrors used to be a real threat and now I love them when I am dressed. I look fantastic.

Moving Forward

Exercise: Whole body workout
Breakfast: toast and peanut butter
Lunch: 1/2 round toasted chicken sandwich
Tea:Lean beef burger with salad

I stayed home today except for a trip into town to pick Jack up from the bus which turned into 3 trips but that's another story.
Last week I was supposed to start an exercise program designed by Kristen at IBO, well actually I did the cardio then went to work so technically I did start it.
Late in the afternoon I tripped and fell and even now a week later I have the biggest bruise I have ever had on my left knee, two small ones on my right leg and a bruised left wrist. It knocked me for six. My left knee is absolutely amazing to look at and to feel. It is yellow, purple and black and still very puffy. The puffy bits hurt the most but the skin is numb if that makes sense.
I did the workout today but you should have seen me try to get up off the floor after the bridges. Let's put it this way, I am glad I was alone in the room because anyone there would have been in hysterics.

As you are probably aware my weight problem has mostly been to do with emotional things, like death, money, depression etc. Recently I took an unusual step with the support of my psychologist.

I went to a clairvoyant for a group session. Things that came up really helped me. Things that came up for some others made me teary. The next step for me is a private session which I should book because she has a wait list about 8 months long.

Today I feel empowered and I think I am really moving forward

cheers
Kerry

Bad choices

Well after yesterday self back patting I have let myself down. I ate a mini spring roll and a bit of a really awful slice. My excuse is that it was very cold this morning. Ha! What a weak excuse, things will be better tomorrow.

This has been a mammoth week and I am just about burnt right out.

Tomorrow I will be at work in Culgoa and I will have some time at home as well. The weekend doesn't look like providing any rest and then I will start again.

I really want about two days sleep, please.

Boobs

I haven't been weighing everyday so I guess I am making steps in the right direction in regard to self confidence and self assurance.

I automatically make good food choices most of the time now and even the thought sometimes of things I would have overeaten once makes me feel ill.
I have been shopping for clothes out of necessity and one lady helping me in a shop told me I have to get used to seeing a different me in the mirror. I walked out of there with nothing over size 14 and some 12's.
Today I was fitted for new bras and wait for it..............I now have size 14 bloody double ef. WTF#*#*
The girls don't want to go anywhere soon by the looks of it. Anyway they are at least sitting where they should and not dangling around my waist. Oh well, I guess I will have to live with what I have.

Moving Forward # 2

My other blog is titled Moving Forward because that's what I knew I had to do after I gained all the weight back.

I am at the point in my weight battle that I was about 3 weeks after Mum's death in 2006. It was the lightest I had been in years, my next best memory being December 1995 when I was about 68kg and Sam started walking.

68kg is therefore my next moving forward goal. By then I will be overweight and no longer obese. I plan to be there by my birthday, May 15th.

How's that for a simple, measurable goal?

Hair

Well I am still losing some hair and I am not taking the zincaps because every time I did I had severe nausea and dry reaching which wasn't good.

30

That's how many kg I have lost to date.