Bad choices

Well after yesterday self back patting I have let myself down. I ate a mini spring roll and a bit of a really awful slice. My excuse is that it was very cold this morning. Ha! What a weak excuse, things will be better tomorrow.

This has been a mammoth week and I am just about burnt right out.

Tomorrow I will be at work in Culgoa and I will have some time at home as well. The weekend doesn't look like providing any rest and then I will start again.

I really want about two days sleep, please.

Boobs

I haven't been weighing everyday so I guess I am making steps in the right direction in regard to self confidence and self assurance.

I automatically make good food choices most of the time now and even the thought sometimes of things I would have overeaten once makes me feel ill.
I have been shopping for clothes out of necessity and one lady helping me in a shop told me I have to get used to seeing a different me in the mirror. I walked out of there with nothing over size 14 and some 12's.
Today I was fitted for new bras and wait for it..............I now have size 14 bloody double ef. WTF#*#*
The girls don't want to go anywhere soon by the looks of it. Anyway they are at least sitting where they should and not dangling around my waist. Oh well, I guess I will have to live with what I have.

Moving Forward # 2

My other blog is titled Moving Forward because that's what I knew I had to do after I gained all the weight back.

I am at the point in my weight battle that I was about 3 weeks after Mum's death in 2006. It was the lightest I had been in years, my next best memory being December 1995 when I was about 68kg and Sam started walking.

68kg is therefore my next moving forward goal. By then I will be overweight and no longer obese. I plan to be there by my birthday, May 15th.

How's that for a simple, measurable goal?

Hair

Well I am still losing some hair and I am not taking the zincaps because every time I did I had severe nausea and dry reaching which wasn't good.

30

That's how many kg I have lost to date.

If exercise is the key, why the hell don't I want to do it?

Exercise: Full body workout designed by me for me plus hill cardio for 30 minutes
Breakfast: toast with pn butter and 1/2 banana
Lunch: scrambled egg
Tea:going out to dinner, who knows?

The scales have shifted again and now as you can see by the ticker I am very close to the 30kg mark. It took 11 days for the move this time, way too slow, exercise will be the key.

Hopefully this will be the motivation for me to exercise more often, I haven't had that switch turned back on yet. I really enjoy exercise so I don't understand the grey matter in my head backing away from it.

Melanie replied and told me to take zincaps along with my multivitamin and to see her as soon as possible. It's alright for her, I'm in NW victoria and she's in Melbourne and she is only there on Monday and Wednesdays. I'll get there when I can.

Exercise: Full body work out with Steve, yay at last.
Breakfast: oats
Lunch: dry biscuits and pn butter, trying to add some carbs
Tea:Chicken and salad

This hair business is becoming a bit of a worry and Melanie hasn't answered my email yet, I hope she does soon.

Every day I get heaps out when I wash it, dry it and brush it. I find it on my pillow but not thick bits like when mum lost hers through chemo, always just a few strands but it is getting to be too often. It is starting to look a bit thin now.

Twittering

Look to your right and you will see I have added my Twitter account in. This will be updated much more often than the blog so you can check what I'm up to here in two ways.

I have been losing hair for the past few weeks so I did some research and found out it is due to low carbs according to my Google findings so I will have to try to add a few more in than I have been. Eating carbs is difficult because they fill me up instantly and make eating anything else difficult. Tonight I had some rice with my meat and veggies.

I will keep you informed.